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10

Mar

22!

I was led into a room filled with joy - an experience i have not felt in the longest time. Never had i felt so genuinely surprised. and i had a cake on my birthday - it has been 3 years i guess. the day was normal but blissful and joyful. after watching the oscars, i headed to the gym. treated myself to an ORIGINAL sized japanese curry with brown rice, ordered from this girl - probably her first day. seemed to me like my wishing-her-a-good-day made her day. i felt the love and wanted to give it. father wished me. skyped my sister and mom after that; though slightly disappointed again that my mum forgot. but i guess its ok. you are grateful for what they have done and sacrifices they have made. a birthday as the word suggests, is just a day. went to have ba ku teh after that and collected a row of chocolates on my way back. this is honestly one of the best birthdays i ever had and i am deeply grateful! 

22

Nov

negotiation

I have to reorganise myself. 

My mind carries an explosion of thoughts and I should really think through what I want to say, how I want to say.

To have so many ideas presented doesn’t reflect your academic prowess.

Think through how you want to present so that it gets conveyed clearly.

Fair trade didn’t go through. Perhaps I should have introduced something more neutral and mild first rather than go into what I really want - Tibet. 

30

Sep

too good to be true

it has been two weeks since i touched down in london and i am still sorting out my life. as much as i try to look on the bright side of things, everything from module selection, to transfer haven’t been what i expect them to be. i mistook georgetown university for georgetown college and corresponded with a counsellor in charge of the latter school. i feel slightly disappointed as the curriculum available doesn’t fit my interests and i have seriously no one to blame for myself. sometimes, i just want to be alone and not be surrounded by all these people, be away from all the familiar faces, be able to explore what i want to know, unrestrained, away from the influence of people other than academics. i am having doubts about everything. it seems like for all my schooling life, i strive to work hard, trying to achieve what i would ideally like to be but it always seem an abyss away.

21

Sep

Energies

The day started off well with me sitting alone at the cafeteria which of course was intially awkward however that feeling of being outcasted soon disappeared as chin came along and 2 of the locals joined us. Somehow what a friend said about making the first move and being the one to initiate conversations with others left quite a strong impression in my head. I have attempted to break the ice at various occasions and most ofthe times, it turns out to be better than expected. I made 2 brits today and one hungarian-nigerian, whom I met at the lift as I was going back to my room. I initiated the conversation and it turned out perfect. I just hope I can know better in the weeks to come.

Anyway, so after breakfast, we pottered over to King’s for London Fashion Week, hoping to catch a glimpse of some famous face or personalities. It was my third time visiting the tent but there was the same sense of excitement and anticipation in me. We bought food from Pret after looking at the tents and headed across the Thames for lunch by the river. The weather was the perfect blend of chill and warmth, which made the day all the more pleasant. On the other side of the river, we chanced upon this river side market-place which sells second-hand and vintage reads. Books dated from the 19th century were going for 10 pounds! That is the thing I love about London - the myraid of gems scattered around the city. And cat my friend, had a MOMENT when she caught the eyes of a vogue editor and  photographer. She had a Startorialist moment. They handed her a Conde Nast form for her to approve of release of the photos. I MEAN… seriously!

We then took a nice long stroll to THE Harrods (stopping by H&M and other shops) and I had this cold salmon sandwich. It didnt taste as nice as what the sales guy claimed it to be. But whatever… We then rented bicycles and started cycling back to our halls. When I was turning into Oxford Street, I crossed the pedestrian walk way at the traffic lights on my bicycle when the green pedestrian lights we up. This fat mother with her daughter were about the cross the road when the FAT mother suddenly cursed at me. I don’t know man but every time something like that happens, it really gets me. And that kinda really dampened the mood for me. I thought after all that I have been through during army have honed me to be tough enough to dismiss such trivial remarks. Am I really that weak? It just sucks sometimes to be so worked up over such minor events in life. I mean come on man. You have been through more than you think you can handle so why get so affected by such rubbish?! Oh wells. At least the rest of the day was great and i managed to buy two steals from H&M :)

Tomorrow will be the first day of the International Students Orientation Programme. I hope it will be pleasant and interesting!

17

Sep

Arrived in London

This is a good period to document this brand new phase of my life. and I SHALL TRY to do it more CONSCIENTIOUSLY AND CONSISTENTLY! So, I arrived safely in Heathrow Airport yesterday at around 0558 and started looking for people travelling to central London. It baffles me sometimes how people are unwilling to go that extra bit to help someone like in this case, sharing a cab. Luckily, after much pity persuasion and helping them find trolleys for their baggage, she finally offered to ask the driver. It turns out, the taxi is big enough to fit an elephant. The driver made us pay an extra 10 pounds which i gladly paid because I knew that it was way less than if 1) they split the cost of the taxi trip equally among 3 people and 2) if I had taken the Heathrow Express.

So as usual, I dropped my things off in my bedroom, which turns out to be smaller than expected - not that I’m complaining, and started exploring the vicinity, went to UCL to ask for a statement that I’m a student of the Geography Department and went to further explore the UCL part of London. I bought strawberries, blackcurrant and raspberries at Tesco before making an appointment at Lloyds to open a bank account with them. After talking to admin staff at the Geography department and emailing the undergrad tutor, I realised that I was only able to do one half unit module outside the Geography Department which kinda bummed me. WHY DID I HAVE THE IMPRESSION that I was able to do a One unit module. I mean, this always happens to me. And I don’t why so? Is it because I always choose to believe what I would like to think instead of what is factual and reality? This kinda annoys me. I really want to do modules in politics. I’m not sure where this will take me but I am very certain of my interest in politics. I am not sure man…

However, all these troubles and worries seem to fade away once I stepped into this family french/itallian cafe around the corner of my hall and had my first lunch - lasagna with chips and Ribena!

Anyway, its a Saturday morning at 0715 and I am preparing to have my first breakfast in London before heading out to tour London with my new found Singaporean neighbour and his friends.  

30

Aug

flashback japan 2001 and afternoon with george

i was glad that i the video cassettes from eons ago were still able to be played on the $1300 video camera bought a decade ago. i also managed to find all the three tapes that were used during that family trip. my tapes are not faulty! they are just incompatible with the recorder the shop at tanjong pagar uses.

looking through the videos of my family 10 years ago was nostalgic and those happy days as a family just seem so distant and unfamiliar. it reminded me again the thankless roles both my parents played raising me up. it was emotional and heartwrenching thinking about all they have done in raising us up.

putting myself together, i then quickly made a dash out of my house soon for some sharing session with george at the legendary pyramid club at goodwill hill. gated, exclusive, opulent are understatements to describe the neighbourhood the chimerical club sitting on goodwill hill. his years of experience in the civil service was evident during his sharing session with us as he drifted from heritage, identity, politics, the recent GE and PE. it somehow fueled my interest in geography again and made me see the relevance of the discipline in today’s society and political landscape. what resonated with me somehow, was the point on how democracy in today’s society is loosing its relevance due to globalisation and the mobility of citizens. the idea of hierarchy is also being slowly corroded. i hope that my course of study at college will give me the opportunity to delve into these areas of politics and the changing face of it in today’s world.

16

Aug

The Phantom Menace

Washington


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THREE years ago this month, Russia and Georgia fought a brief and brutal war over an obscure slice of mountainous land called South Ossetia that had declared its independence from Georgia. Flouting international law, Russia stepped in to defend South Ossetia and later formally recognized the secessionists as a legitimate government. Hundreds died and thousands of refugees fled the disputed region.

The 2008 war demonstrated the explosive potential created by the presence of phantom states: places that field military forces, hold elections, build local economies and educate children, yet inhabit the foggy netherworld between de facto existence and international legitimacy.

With under 30,000 people, South Ossetia is one of the smallest of these oddities of international politics. Its fellow breakaway republic, Abkhazia, has approximately 150,000. Nagorno-Karabakh and Transnistria are two others in the former Soviet Union. To the south are the Turkish Republic of Northern Cyprus; the Palestinian territories in the West Bank and Gaza Strip; and the self-functioning territory of Somaliland. A half dozen other patches of land could be added to the mix; together, they are home to approximately 40 million people.

Phantom states stoke wars, foster crime, and make weak states even weaker. Nagorno-Karabakh is lauded by Armenia and loathed by Azerbaijan, leading all sides to stockpile arms in case of renewed violence. The unsettled status of Northern Cyprus weakens the economic prospects of all Cypriots and strains relations between the European Union and Turkey, Northern Cyprus’s chief supporter. And although Somaliland has been an island of effective governance in anarchic Somalia, its unrecognized status has discouraged aid and investment.

Phantom countries frequently emerge from wars, and are sustained by the threat of further fighting. In Gaza, Hamas has waged an off-and-on war with Israel even as it has cracked down on local crime and picked up the trash.

Leaders of phantom states champion the right to national self-determination while the countries from which they seek independence stress the need for stable borders. Stuck between these incompatible principles, phantom governments tend to point out uncomfortable precedents and double standards and latch on to foreign patrons. Indeed, most phantoms survive in part because of external support. Moscow is the power broker in South Ossetia and Abkhazia, while Armenia holds sway over Nagorno-Karabakh.

Taiwan shows one way out of this conundrum; despite existing in a state of legal uncertainty, it has thrived. From 1949 to 1971 the Nationalist government in Taiwan held China’s seat at the United Nations and was recognized by most world governments. Since the 1970s, however, no major power has formally recognized Taiwan and it remains a source of tension between the United States and China. Yet, in the past four decades, Taiwan has become an economic powerhouse, a model of democratic transition from authoritarian rule and a responsible member of the international community — all without a seat at the United Nations.

The key was engagement. Taiwan’s economic and strategic importance pushed the United States, China and other great powers to tiptoe around — and sometimes even embrace — its unsettled legal status. Legitimate but unrecognized, a real country but not independent, Taiwan has demonstrated the positive power of creative ambiguity.

A similar approach could work elsewhere. Phantom governments are often corrupt, run by warlords and plagued by drug trafficking and other illicit trade. But transparent government, free elections and a peaceful foreign policy are as vital for phantom states as they are for real ones. If phantom governments behave well, they should be offered a path toward legitimacy by the world’s major powers. Economic and political reforms can proceed parallel to, and even bolster, discussions over sovereignty.

By insisting on territorial integrity, the United States and other countries forgo the chance to turn phantom states into responsible players. So long as phantoms are denounced as separatists or outposts of illicit commerce, the international community has little opportunity to hold their leaders accountable. And treating them as mere eccentricities means that phantom states have little reason to care about the international order.

Even when a phantom state becomes a genuine state, the problems don’t necessarily end. Eritrea, which seceded from Ethiopia in 1993 after years of war, is a warning. It has since fallen into tyranny, fought a border war with Ethiopia in which many thousands died, and supported the brutal Shabab militia in Somalia. Although Eritrea is independent, it remains a source of instability.

To avoid another Eritrea, the international community should push phantoms to reform rather than focusing exclusively on seeking statehood. Otherwise, millions of the world’s citizens will linger in legal and political limbo — rebels with a cause and soldiers with a ready-made grievance — while their neighborhoods remain at risk of war.

Daniel L. Byman is research director of the Saban Center for Middle East Policy at the Brookings Institution. Charles King is the author of “Odessa: Genius and Death in a City of Dreams.” They are professors at Georgetown University.

03

Aug

Dilemmas

I like to think that one should stand up for what he believes in and do what he is deeply passionate about. Or at least that is what I always say to others. But when it came down to choosing one college over the another, practicality and brand seemed to tug the strings of my heart and head. Why did I end up in this situation? Why didn’t I freaking studied for SAT and applied to schools in the states? Why didn’t braved up and applied to the best schools in UK? I had two years to think and act on it, but why is it that all these seem to have just occurred to me? Why wasn’t I ambitious enough yet I go around telling people to chase after what they really want. Not that I am unhappy with the college I am about to depart for now, it just seems that I have betrayed myself in every sense - from being true to myself to doing what I really want. Don’t get me wrong, I am not being ungrateful to all the things that have happened to me. Looking at how far I have come, I guess I have already surpassed the expectations of many. However, deep down inside, I know I can achieve more.

19

Jul

incapable

why is it that i still don’t have the inner confidence that i am as good or even better than the rest? why am i still shackled by the past? am i just simply weak because i am unable to face rejections and failures? toughen up sucker!~

04

Jul

周慧来:中国须全面审视“韬光养晦”外交